Our names are our past, our
present, and our future. They connect us to the history that has made us, our
circumstances that in part define us, and sometimes, the possibilities that
will be open to us. When I stumbled across this Al Jazeera cultural series
spotlight, "What's in a name," it was an idea I just couldn't shake.
Thoughts of ascribed identity, historical implications, social mobility, and
gender assignment, among other things, flooded my mind. These names we are
given speak so much about who we are, but yet, leave so much out. One hundred
years ago, a name would delineate our gender, our bloodline, our nationality,
our ancestry, and sometimes, our socio-economic status. Now, arguably, none of
that is true. But, nevertheless, names link our thoughts to ideas about the
world. Without ever meeting a person, a name can paint a mental picture of what
that person looks like. It can generate discriminatory thoughts. It can incite
racial profiling. It can regionalize, nationalize or racialize people. Think
about when you hear/see first names like Shemiqua, Bobbie Sue, Jesus, Josefina,
Ahmed, Vladimir, Olga or Francisco. Immediate types came to mind, right? And last
names, which are passed down through time, mean so much to some people. But in
different ways, I would argue.
In this article http://projects.aljazeera.com/2014/namestories/#intro
, Al Jazeera highlights 3 main stories. The first, is Emily Tanaka, a half
Caucasian (her mother), half Japanese (her father) woman. When she travelled to
Japan to visit family, no one would believe she was actually Japanese, because
she looks very Caucasian. Everyone was convinced she was married to a Japanese
man. So when she got married (to a gentleman by the name of Smith), she dealt
with an internal struggle of sorts as to whether or not she should keep her
last name, take her husbands, or hyphenate. By taking her husbands, she felt
she would lose part of her cultural identity, the part that she so proudly felt
represented her father. The second is Cecilia Gentili, an Argentinian woman who
when born, was named Alejandro Gabriel Gentili. In her 20's Cecilia decided she
would move forward with a complete gender re-assignment (from male to female)
so her body would reflect who she was on the inside. Through much of this time,
friends referred to her as Alex or Alexa (nicknames from Alejandro). Once her
surgeries were finished, Cecilia decided it only made sense to legally change
her name. To her, Alex was so androgynous, commonly used as a name for both men
and women. She wanted to affirm her identity by selecting a name that was
unmistakably female, much as she was. Her name and her identity finally became
aligned, and ultimately helped her to define to the outside world her true
identity. The third is John H. Doe's story. He is a Korean American from New
York City, New York whose given name at birth was Jang Huan Do. When he was in
grade school, he urged his family to change their name to Doe, because it would
help Americanize them. Also, he was tired of people calling him Jang (how it
rhymes with sang), and Do (like to do, instead of Doe). In efforts to assimilate,
his family did change, and from that point forward he went by the name John. In
3rd grade, while reading the dictionary, a friend pointed out his name was
actually in there. John Doe was listed as a "legal, fictitious identity
which does not exist."
The meanings of their name
differs in each story, but all represent part of their identity. Identities
that these three have found equate to negotiations of who they are with
society.
I feel on some level, I
understand the struggle with ones' name and identity. Being adopted slightly
later in life, I was completely cognizant of my name change. And so was
everyone else in my grade. Having to explain why in 4th grade your name was one
thing, and in 5th, another, is interesting to do for a 9 year old. But more than
that, the change of my name signified a change in my identity. I was no longer
Chelsey Bowen from Texas, I was Chelsi Hudson from Tennessee. I was, from that
point forward, a Hudson. My "family" signified those currently in my
life, that shared my name, instead of those in my past, who no longer did. I
had to learn a new way to sign my name, and become used to responding to a
different one. Eventually, I became used to it, as did everyone else, but that
awkward time sticks with me.
So, although names are always
subject to others interpretations, it is not always indicative of who they are,
where they come from, or what they believe.
I can definitely relate to that! My full name, also once adopted, became Adam Christian Stuart. My first name is a Hebrew name that has implications for all three of the Abrahamic religions. Obviously my middle name is pretty straight forward. And my last name is Stuart, as in King James Stuart, or the namesake of the King James bible. As someone whose connections to the christian church are spiritual, philosophical, and academic in nature, my separation from the modern meaning of my own name is an identity gap I've abandoned any attempt to negotiate (except, perhaps, this one).
ReplyDeleteOf course my name was given to me, and therefore it holds a greater identity to my parents than to me. For me it is simply the name that will turn my head in the direction of the call. I have often thought that one day I would again change my name to one that better suits me. Then, however, I realized that my name is for the purposes of the other in communication, and not for me. I need not know even my own name to know who or what I am. Cheers!